i'm so sick and tired.
nothing ever goes right.
i know all of this sounds cliche.
but really, i just can't take it anymore.



yesterday was a year since my father died.
i miss him so much.
): i'd do ANYTHING in my power to get him back.


and my boyfriend..
i waited up for him until 1:30 in the fucking morning to talk to him.
and what does he do?
falls a sleep.
yea i get he's tired.
but i'm always so understanding to him.
and i try to hard to be a good girlfriend.
couldn't he just try a little harder that day?
he knew how hurt i was..
and then he asked me how was my dad
and i told him i dont want to talk, and he just turns off his phone.

it's still off.

i wonder if it broke?
it has been messing up lately

i hope it's not broken.

and i hope we'll fix this soon.

because it's not helping my depression at all.

i want to get away so bad.